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>I jerk off to my favorite BDSM fantasies
This is going to sound bizarre but I've unironically developed a serious pegging fetish along with some femdom since COVID. It's not because I want to be cucked or I'm a closeted fag or anything like that, it's merely because I've felt so literally fucked by the state of postmodernity that a literal manifestation of that absurdity turns me on like nothing else.
It's the same idea behind Steely Dan III in Naked Lunch. I had never heard that passage until a couple years ago, but it completely makes sense and represents my predicament pretty well.