Girl I'm interested (more like obsessed, been dreaming about her multiple times) in was in a relationship until recently. I've been wanting to get with her for forever. She likes me and I like her, other people have commented on how good our chemistry, we get along really well. This girl has also done porn and cammed in the past, and she's alluded to having been sexually abused as a child. Anyway, I wanted to ask her out this week; today she hit me up, wanted to do something with a friend of mine and her, I said yes. We meet up, have fun, then she takes us to her apartment. At some point she just randomly tells us how shortly after her break up (about 3 weeks ago) she was about to holler at an old acquaintance (didn't even call him friend) of hers for sex, but then decided against it because she had other things to do. That hit me way harder than expected, I was absolutely disgusted when she told me that; I can excuse things that are the past, but I don't want anything from a girl that still behaves like that. I thought I had no more standards but turns out I have. She's a nice and kind girl but that's just too much for me. The upside down crosses and bloody crucifix she has in her apartment don't help.
If this makes me a bitter incel chudcel nazi, then so be it.