>>938228403
Your life is not your own, OP. It belongs to everyone else around you. When you fuck yourself over you fuck over those you care about. If you don't take care of yourself for you, do it for your loved ones.
>>935813587
I'm sure you could go on grindr or something and find some local dude to cum on stuff for you for free. Or I guess you could have him charge you for it if it's some sort of weird findom kink you've got going on.