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I am not worthy. From the moment I was born my life has been an unending chaos...from addict bio parents to abusive foster care homes to complete homelessness. I've never known the warmth of a stable family, nor the stability of a warm life. I have always been in a survival state even when I do not need to be. I make stupid choices, am generally lost and fail to see a vision beyond the despair I tread in every day. I am jaded and withdrawn. I struggle to get along with anyone, really. I hope to stay above the water whilst being fully aware that hope is the bait I'm to be led by. To be lulled with. To keep the show going.

I wish I had a partner who understood me but I never go outside... So I will never meet one. I post here because I hope there is someone else like me, who would have the patience to share with me. I think I have a lot to give outside of material things and yearn for a place beside someone special. I am tall, solemn and shy in public. I have a bad habit of shrinking into a space that isnt mine and I hate it. I have a dream for who I am and have only gotten a part of the way through the process. One day I would like to stand tall and proud. I am beautiful, inside and out but struggle to properly channel it. I often self sabotage or dim my own light. I could use a bit of guidance / reinforcement and can reciprocate, happily. I fully intend to listen and respect you in every way possible. I am interested in having friends also but find I end up being the only one talking, so i am disheartened.

Lately, all I do is listen to audiobooks/music.
I just finished tao te ching and might start ars goetia, just for fun.

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLrYIoaGPp5rgYnxWWE4EHZeyunPucku86

These are some songs I really like right now

In terms of shows/ movies just anything thats well shot with good acting can get me hooked.
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