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... on! At least let me get my shotgun so I can do it myself! Every day, I wake up with my chest tighter than before, my chest feeling flattery (?? guess he means 'more flat' here, says 'floteri') and my heart... Full of hate and ready to give out. I want my fucking shockwave. I need more money! Someone buy my airsoft gear! Grrr, I am so broke. I just paid rent and ouch (?)! That was a lot! I need to get money. I can barely afford one gun let alone a whole arsenal. I don't have much else to sell. Hmm... The concept of escape from the shooting is very intriguing. As shown by Nikolas Cruz and Awake, you can certainly flee with the crowd when in the right attire (?? unsure, says 'ataiyur') and have the right timing. I definitely wouldn't try to get away with it, as alluring as that seems. I would follow Awake, and just get away to do another attack. I think its risky but possible with the right planning. Awake's flaw was they didn't plan what to do or where to go after he giot away. I should ponder that more.