>>41439209
Society has rules of socialization you haven't practiced in because you have either trauma or as well a mental quirk. Everyone has a bit of cognitive dissonance when viewed from the lens of social media. Find a way back into the real world. Go on hikes by yourself, and healthy activities, until you see someone that you recognize as a friend that values Goodness. Not everyone out there is a hypocrite or sociopath. Turn off the news and start small. Work on your self-image bit by bit. If there's nothing you hate about yourself, then you just have a hard time expressing yourself to others where they are able to fit you in. It's a common problem for aspergers', but there is not anything wrong with making conversation when provoked to speak about ones dedicated knowledge and interests while ignoring the common tongue's random small talk. No one's that different, remember it. If you want to start off small get into group therapy if possible, you don't even have to look people in the eyes you can just look to empty space beside their head or at an object. It's ok to sometimes feel disconnected but still a participant if you do it confidently without fear.