>We're practically married
>But I'm not gay though
>But we should get married
>But I'm not attracted to girls
>But I want to be with you forever
>But not in the gay way though
>But also I want to kiss your neck and smell you
>But in a totally straight way
>But I will literally kill myself if you die
>But I'll say no homo while I do it
Is there a word for this level of denial?