>>23282788
>also I have somewhat faith in the idea of some kind of fate. If I imagine myself having children it feels very wrong even if everything was perfect about it. It feels fundementally wrong to me It's probably not part of my fate.
i think it's not something you should strive for if it feels wrong, but you shouldn't close yourself off to the idea completely either
i think having children is something which should sort of take care of itself, if it's supposed to happen and if your life is properly organized