Some conversation was had and I want to add a few things. Apologies for avatarfagging but it will add some clarity to the conversation.

>>11351047
You were told this already but I want to add how important it is to understand that BDSM is not about paternalism. A BDSM relationship that is founded on anxiety from either side will quickly turn abusive. If this girl is going to emotionally collapse without you, then I guarantee you she will emotionally collapse with you, too.
One of the things my partner and I gained from our experience was trust. It's really important to have a secure attachment style if you're going to engage in this kind of play.

>>11351082
>entirely driven by extrinsic motivation
Ok yeah, we're incredibly similar people then. I'm also very extrinsically motivated by nature and naturally form my entire self perception through the lens of how it makes others see me (which is something I've worked on in therapy but that's another whole thing).
Being ego-driven in that way can be really dangerous because it leaves your mental state reliant on the perception of other people.
If you want therapy to help you you have to be willing to discard some of your own internal sacred cows. Full time slavery won't save you.

>>11350910
>phone and laptop
I think your story is interesting because I tried to do the same thing for more or less the same reasons. I also really wanted to go device-less and have my ability to communicate denied. In practice, I found that too restrictive to actually live with and really realized how important it was to me to be able to talk to my friends. The only time I couldn't use a phone/laptop was during specific punishment sessions.
Fun fact though, I learned how to type with my hands behind my back so I wouldn't have to remove my cuffs.