>>514913080
I am filled with constant inner turmoil but I do very well under stress. I also have terrible memory

I already have a foundation in being pretty good at improvising somewhat rudimentary 4-8 chord thingymajigs and melodies and such. I want to build on this bigly by gaining formal knowledge since I currently have zero and I just intuit everything. I want to enroll in a bachelors of music but I feel like that could get limiting at some point, before I've gotten my moneys worth. I'm pretty sure that I am capable of learning complex things if I apply myself, I'm just lazy and aimless so I haven't done that yet

Spoonfeed me the way pl0z. Like a really good and useful and worthwhile book or lecture or learning resource of some sort or a life plan if possible. Basically be my mentor and my sensei and hold my hand

December: https://voca.ro/1erlhy2GCvaB
February: https://voca.ro/13Wondqlg5Pk
June: https://voca.ro/13xm7qqstJzv