I'm on a strict diet because I'm fat again and I can't tell if it's the depression or the diet but I didn't get much accomplished today. It feels bad even though I know I should relax with my free time when I can. No job at 29 and haven't been employed for a few years now, everyone brushes me aside and I don't know what to do. I can't rest unless I've been productive enough and right now I'm just waiting myself out until I'm tired enough to fall asleep. I just need to make enough money to get by so my grandma can stop worrying about me.