>>82816310
It's impossible to kill yourself. Literally, I pushed myself as hard as I humanely could to do so and I still couldn't do get my finger to depress the trigger of a gun
Over a dozen times I've put a shotgun in my mouth safety off loaded. I've sobbed and cried while trying to will my finger to move 1cm to depress the trigger, but my finger literally won't move. Even if I get close to blackout drunk. It won't fucking move.
I'm trapped for 80 more years of fucking torture and there is NO ESCAPE