>>127290551
when i first found kpop shows it had a strong impact on me like swimming or riding a bike for the first time. i was engrossed and thought about idols non-stop for a month. while eating or walking down the street i thought about what the life of an idol is like, what kind of personality are they, how does the industry work? and then i drew conclusions and almost fell into depression realizing that i had long ago missed my chance, time was lost, life cannot be lived again, saving was ruined. i think i was 25. but i kept watching kpop shows which inspired me and helped me to conclude that i just have to become better. in each subsequent year i have to be better than the previous one. i started dancing, learning to play the guitar and in order to use korean textbooks i had to learn english
but when i found this place it seemed like everything went downhill. in the end it seems like i am now a worse person than i was at the beginning