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my russian wife is beautiful i love her so much we had a wonderful day today after she got home from work
falling over eachother being affectionate and loving all evening; gazed intensely into eachothers eyes actoss my pillow with our foreheads together; she made us spaghetti for dinner; always delicious; and we watched startrek tng and later sailor moon r before bed
also i managed to do some more synth setup work on my music desk
im so blessed and happy she is my angel
i want to teleport our brains and spinal cord/nerves out of our bodies and braid every nerve fiber together and use some distant future device to link the hemispheres and other regions of our brains together like cpu chiplets and connect our optic nerves and ear nerves to a advanced simulation like the matrix where we can be together and still have seperate 100% realistic simulated virtual bodies the same as our own now (minus my disability and flatness) and we can feel all our thoughts and emotions and sensations and everything together from the same shared bilateral perspective and know that we are literally twisted together in some tank
also our hearts would be connected in a loop system and we would share the same blood supply that would go between whats left of our physical bodies and eachother
i want even more of a merger than that but that dream atleast seems visceral enough to express my feelings
alternatively i wish we could transplant swap our hearts so we would physically hold them in eachother; or atleast be able to easily and safely transfuse our blood together (i dont know our types or remember mine but ill ask my dr to type me next time i go)
i told my darling i want to go to the park on a nice breezy warm evening or even afternoon and go out into the field together and scream our love to eachother
i already scream sometimes into her when we are kissing and it feels wonderful but i want every star in the sky to hear me
Raya I love you so much you are my heaven )*