Three hours in class, I'm falling asleep. I skipped my second one because there was no chance I would be able to focus or understand anything.

I sleep 12 hours on regular and feel miserable, its been this way since I was 12, I don't think I'm born to survive.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore, I've done pretty much everything I can think of, therapists, medicine, forcing myself to be active and outside. I just don't know how to help myself, I don't know what to do that would actually change anything.

But I have nobody to go to about it.
My family is pretty judgmental and likes to brush stuff off a lot so I feel like I really can't tell them shit ever.
Last time I saw a psychologist he overlooked so much shit and the result diagnosis was a whole lot of nothing that could help me. I mean maybe it really is true that theres nothing wrong with me, and I am a person that listens to logic over emotion, but I just find it extremely hard to believe what he told me.
I need to find more resources and tips. Should I try to get another assessment with someone else? Should I opt for therapy first so they can really grasp the big picture? During the assessment should I explain first what I think I might have or should I just mention nothing?

For the past couple of weeks, there's been a decline in my appetite. Thinking of eating anything just makes me feel nervous and sick, which is annoying because I liked eating.

I can't eat much anymore without getting sick, my meals have been minimal, crackers and tea, fruits, tiny sandwich.

I already struggled to weigh more than 90 pounds, I'm already small. Maybe I'll just die already.