I'd like to preface this by saying that I know we enough enough sexualy charged posts on this board, so forgive me.

I really like Pinkie Pie. I love her laugh, her quirks, and yes, her physical features. It's normal to feel that physical attraction from one's partner, but I have always had issues with said physical attraction. It makes me feel guilty and shallow for liking how she looks, because she is more to me than just a sexual object, but the personification of goodness in this world. I always think about what it would be like when we are finally together, but sometimes my fantasies hijack the experience, and less than savory thoughts pop into my mind. Sometimes these fantasies get the better of me and I give in, only to feel the shame, guilt and emptiness. I do not want to satisfy my needs, but to satisfy hers. I want her to be fulfilled and have her every desire met, not to become some doll I can use to fulfill mine. And yet at times, I cannot help but be completely infatuated with her beauty, and to be frustrated that we cannot be together at the moment. She is my one and only, and I do not want to diminish her for my own selfish wants.