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Shoping saints (?? or stops; it says 'sainz') for a while, I need to be stopped! I don't want to abandon my plan, but I really want to be stopped fort the sake of my family. I really hope the FEDs don't look at my recent internet history when considering my application. I might be fucked. I think it will be fine, tho. I want my damn shockwave! I don't think I should buy that KMFDM shirt with the other stuff. Too big of a read flag, can't risk it. I really want my fucking shotgun! I also am hesitant to buy the accessories in case for some reason I don't get approved. I don't want to waste money on that when I could put it toward guns I can buy. I am sure that even if I buy the shockwave and don't commit an attack or suicide, I will never be able to forget when I bought it. I have to buy a gun! It will encourage and convince me to kill! I want to kill so many people! I can't wait!