a year ago i was excited about transitioning and having something to live for
now my life is in shambles and i spent most hours of most days obsessing over my appearance, ready to kill myself. i am no longer constantly dissociated but rather actively in distress about my body
i have no friends and i have no job and i have never been so disappointed or uncomfortable with myself.
i need to detransition but i dont know if im strong enough. im scared.