I'm crying while smiling, but not a happy smile
I want a bf to watch the sunrise with
I want a bf to bake cakes with
I want a bf to sleep with
I want a bf to share music with and listen to it together in an isolated place
I want a bf to take the bus with
I want a bf to eat pizza with
I want a bf to cry at movies with
I want a bf to surprise hug me
I want a bf to go incelwalk late at night with
I want a bf to be naked with
I want a bf to laugh at memes with
I want a bf to tell me how much he also wanted a bf (me) to do all these things with and that he will never let me go

I have so much love to give, so much love to show to a guy, and no place to ever deliver my love