I think I'm done guys. Trying to play tabletop has given me too much stress for too little return. Nobody wants to listen to the GM, no GM wants to set standards, nobody wants to read the rulebook, and nobody wants to care about the setting. Coddling players leaves them feeling entitled to take up all of your time, criticize them once and they'll blow up in your face. It feels like if you didn't win the player lotto years ago, you're SOL. When I first started my journey I didn't think my criteria of a player that could be summed up as "a theater kid who adores mechanical fidelity" would be so impossible to find outside of a mirror. The entire culture is anathema to what I enjoy.