Work a hard ass job this Winter and save up for next Summer. Go camping across the West. Stay in the national forests and on BLM land that God gave us. Enjoy the splendors of the natural beauty afforded to us while it's still here. You will feel nothing, but immaculate splendor when faced with the wonders of geologic beauty that exist West of the 100th meridian. Me and a friend took our depressed mutual friend on a 3 month van trip last Summer, we convinced him to quit his job and now he's gotten two promotions in 7 months and they made him manager. Whimsy is yet still possible for you, in the land of the free.