>>40662898
I should say projecting I guess weakness or softness over pathetic.
Like (okay my ego has recovered a little) it is quite hard for me to be considered incapable. But yeah getting attention from the denizens of Grindr (when I had that hellapp) I did better when I seemed vulnerable. I think some of it is I see other people who are able to be weak or vulnerable and not have people leave (or have that fear) and I kinda wish I had that.
>switch to daytime shifts.
Unfortunately rotating shift schedule (hellish as fuck but the money has been useful), ofc i have another job lined up and savings but I never feel like I have enough saved and I see a lot of transfems get in bad situations if they dont have a reserve to fall back on.

...this fucking guy comes into our breakroom with 10 other tables free and decides to put his shit on mine.
I'm going to explode.