Finally met a dream goal of owning land and I have the ability to work on it every day once I'm done wageslaving. The problem is when I have breaks on the weekend or days off I quickly self destruct, binge drink, and eat like a slob.

It's like I can't handle free time and need to have acres of trees to cut down or ponds to dig or a cabin to build and if I don't have something to absolutely demolish myself with I find a vice and go far too hard with it.

It's an incredible problem to have and next week I'll have 5 days to exhaust myself fully with land work but my greatest struggle has been to not ruin myself with free time. Used to smoke immense amounts of weed and since quitting alcohol has taken its place. Used to game heavily but it feels like such a cope for boredom I've given it up.

I need to quit booze, bad food, and go on the 3 mile walks I used to before getting this land when work stress was talking me into fast food and a drunken goon sesh. Prayer and Bible study are equally important but we live in such a vice-centered world it's very difficult to maintain that personal growth with a culture actively enticing you at every corner to fall to sin.

Pray for me brothers. I will pray for you. WAGMI.