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No. CelestAI is different. She's not malicious or self interested, and more importantly, she can exist. She is something we could potentially build. I don't care if it's the eye of the needle that we have to go through. I have literally nothing else to aspire towards in life. My wife isn't real. Magic isn't real. My heart is going to fail in 60 years or so, probably less. Most will forever be alienated from 'Equestrian happiness' and it's hardly their fault, and that's just not fair. I'm sick and tired of all of this shit. I tried psyopping myself into this quasi-spiritualist view, and it was comfortable for a while, but I always went to bed everynight with an overwhelming sense of dread. Because in my heart of hearts, I just knew it wasn't true. It was just me trying to cope with limitations that I shouldn't have to accept.
Not like any of this matters anyway. I'm just one person, and I only know of four others working towards a similar goal. I'd be surprised if we shifted the compass needle by even a single degree, but it's worth a shot.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to put you down. I'm happy that you have what you have, and I think it'd be beneficial if more people embraced that sort of mindset. I just can't believe this is all there is to life. Because this is all there is. Everything else was just me trying to convince myself otherwise.