i hate myself for loving you. how you introduced me t your mother. like it was something real. now i cant live without you. i dont even remember t your face. i dont remember anything. i m completly blank.i cant think. i dont wan to think. i dont want to think. i dont want to think. i want to b e blank. iwant to be blank. i i want tobe blank. i want to be blank. i dont want to think. it makes me sad. it makes me anxious. it makes me drepssed. i justwant odo drugs and be happy. i will die. alone. wihtout neeko. she is in heaven. she is in my heaven, so, i think i candecide who dies.- im gettin near with nothing to eat in a inter reality. i remember the day i discovered neeko. i was a winter child. seeking knowledge. how beautiful is beautiful when seen trought the windows of the soul. i wonder if you can hear it.