30s M cluster A american adrift in a life of comfort, indulgence, and isolation. i've modeled my personality on archetypes of reluctant engagement, core competence, and cynical detachment - but in raising myself to conquer my small slice of life, i've neglected to learn how to share it with others or enjoy the fruits of my successes. my life is absent of misery and fulfillment alike. i invite people in and then ice them out when we inevitably fail to form an emotional bond.

still, against all reason, i hold out hope that i can form a deep, spiritual, enduring connection with someone who i can find purpose in offering purpose. i'm seeking lost, obsessive, submissive female energy. i have every expectation that anyone desperate enough to respond to such a bleak prompt is suitable only for momentary distraction and temporary pleasure - but i prefer to believe that there's magic out there to be found in human connection despite all of my empirical evidence to the contrary. even as i lock myself indoors, i crave connection with a soul as alien on this earth as i am.

disc: brevity.is