I want Pillow to be my oshi but I'm worried if she isn't single. How could she be? Her allure is so potent, especially after yesterday's stream and I don't want my heartbroken again. I've been through it before with a small corpo and it put me off vtubers for over a year. She lightly addressed this in the nail stream saying only piwwos get to see her nails but that's still just words, you still have to trust her. What would hurt me is not her actually being in a relationship, it would be the deception and manipulation. I'd lose faith in women again and she's done a lot to repair it. It's why I want to find my own Pillow so bad and not get so parasocial with Pillowdear.