https://voca.ro/1oSv0C48dqVR
New butt metal song
Finding a lot of freedom in writing songs with a lot more simplicity in composition but complexity in depth of layering lately

Have any other older virgins had the experience of making a strong connection with a woman for the first time in their life unexpectedly, and it rips you out of extreme apathy and resignation, and now you know what mutual attraction and emotional vulnerability feels like, but then it falls apart before you could figure out how to progress it? And now you're alone again like normal but for the first time in your life it's hitting you how insanely soul-crushingly lonely and devastating isolation is because for a brief while you had a woman genuinely interested in you to talk to every day and share things with? But since it happened on accident in extremely unique circumstances with someone outlandishly similar to and understanding of you, you have no idea how to even go about trying to do it again?
This shit has kinda made me insane and I don't know how to deal with it
Going back to apathy seems impossible now, but trying to find something like this again and take it all the way also feels impossible. It would've been easier if I never met her