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My last words would be something about being happy for everyone I ever loved for it was them who made me into who I am for the better and it was myself who made me into who I am for the worst. I am glad for my greatest treasures I have collected. The most valuable virtues I possessed. My only regret is that I could not have them forever and was restricted to a revolving door of the illusion of association with them governed by fate, luck and my own unfortunate mistakes and decisions. It was never money that made me happy, when it left I was the same. It was never property that gave me solace as lacking such now I feel no different. It was the instinctual and intrinsic connections with my friends that I wish could last forever and that I wish I still had that gave me my very own special reason to live. Truly it is good to live for the people you know who are just like you or even better, it is such a shame that I find it impossible to live for myself and am scared from attempts to do so. So if I really were sailing away tonight I would say something about that.