i want to be in bondage and have to eat and drink from a beautiful girl's hand. i want her to make fun of how gross i look and how retarded i am..
i want to be kicked and degraded until i'm sobbing, and then afterwards kissed on the forehead, given a little acknowledgement, and be allowed to sleep at the foot of her bed for the night. i'd be privileged to be allowed to be around her at all, really.
i want her to make fun of me for never being able to be in a normal relationship, as a grotesque, mutilated, ugly, mentally ill pooner. i want her to call me a mutilated woman. the best i'll ever be able to get, is getting my tdick stepped on, and getting slapped and kicked around. i want her to starve me, so that even though she's shorter and smaller, i'm still easy to overpower and abuse.
i want her to take my virginity, so she can be my first and last.. not as an actual partner, god forbid a sexual or romantic one one, but as a mutilated degenerate pet.
being ftm is absolutely wonderful.