nigga nigga nigga
I am bored
I keep spreading negativity and even though I hide it in jokes and make it as unpersonal as possible I still feel like I'm like crying for help or pulling everyone down with me or something
I just want to feel okay again. Just have a day where I don't want to shoot myself. Funnily enough I have enough time to actually sleep and wind down. But I just can't stand the boredom. Is it my fault? Can it be my fault when my whole life feels like that of an animal jumping around in a cage trying to get out?
I know the caffeine and social media are poison but how do you quit that shit? How to you stand the boredom?
How do I break the cycle?