I'm saddened to see this kinda shit is happening all around the world, not just in western countries. I feel your pain, op. Shit sucks. I wish you the best of luck and hope you can find the strength to keep going. You don't deserve to have your life cut short because of the actions of psychos in the goverment that allow this to happen. You deserve to keep going so you can find your happiness someday. God bless.