I experienced formative teenage love as well.
>fairly racist
>very antisemitic (and anti netanyahu)
>fuck society in its current form
>care about the culture war only in regards to preserving my culture
>happenings...
You fell for the "nothing ever happens" meme. Happenings dont have to be big, only have the potential to snowball. They are entertaining.

I think what this is really about is the prospect that reality will be far worse for my kids than it was for me. It was a different world when I was a teenager.