>>40981556
desu i think the biggest reason is that i feel a lot of shame about being attracted to them so i avoid even the pretty trans girls who have liked me.

part of it is like the "you're a faggot and everyone's gonna know" thoughts but also i feel like i don't like trans girls in the right way. doesn't help that i did get close to a lady a few years ago that i had a kind of faggy dynamic with that really really worked for me. was always confusing because i saw her as a girl but i loved when she'd make fun of me and call me gay. she liked to play both sides.

i'm trying to change my attitude and embrace what i like nowadays.