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I feel like I can see the future. I wake up and search for meaning. Every day, I wake and look in myself for. Help, and every day I see the same end. I am too far gone. I am leaving soon. I am okay with dying. I want to carry out my final act on the world. I want my name in the records as the deadliest. I try to think of a reason not to. I had one, but I convinced myself my family will be fine. They will move on and so will the world. Nothing ever happens. Take my act and make an example! Don't publicize it and spread the juicy (??) events. Or change up the gun laws so they really keep kids safe. The whole classfication shit is so stupid. I want a short barreled assault rifle, so I have to go under handguns? They filter by caliber or something. So stupid! It's a god damn rifle, not a hand gun. You are not blocking people like me from anythings. You are...