that’s it

i wish i could hold him

i wish i had the courage to speak around him

my heart pines for him

and i hate myself for these awful gross creepy feelings

i wish i didn’t have work at night so i could be in vc with him

but i wouldn’t even speak around him

im such a stupid faggot loser
i hate myself for feeling this way about him
it’s so creepy and uncouth

i wish i had a man to hold my hand like that

to be gentle with me

i hate being alone and a failure

>>41526402
it’s ok i have oneitis too

i want him so bad

i think maybe soon ill tell him how i feel

but i dont think he will reciprocate

it will be a very sad day

>>41461519
i wish i was larping. why do you think im larping? i dont understand
making these threads are my only outlet because i truly cannot express it to him appropriately

ill come clean though, hes a small content creator. that’s why it’s inappropriate. im a “””fan””” (hopeless stupid tranny failure loser) and it would be completely inappropriate to approach him and confess my feelings to him.

and when he says things like hes a loser i immediately tell him hes not, one night when he did i said thats hes a unique and special person who’s very talented and he sent some things that didnt really make sense and i told him i worry about him.

i always try to compliment him when appropriate and express my affinity for him in an appropriate manner. but i feel like it’s water off of a ducks back because he goes back to denigrating himself sometimes. and what i say could just be interpreted as a fan being positive.
but its not just that…i care about him so deeply, it hurts…and hes been through so much in his life, and hes been through so much recently it makes me weep…and hes alone and i know he doesnt like it and it makes me so sad because i dont want him to be alone…i want to make him happy but i never ever will be able to…

i promise im not larping, i promise, im just a pathetic creepy tranny boymoding loser who is hopeless and ill never ever be able to tell him how i truly feel and how much i care and pine for him

i hate myself so much for this

my heart pines for a man I’ll never ever be able to have
he’s so sweet and kind and he impresses me all the time and im very proud of him, i admire and look up to him

he has all sorts of varied interests that align with mine, the more i learn about him the more my heart pines for him…

i worry about him a lot, he’s had so much happen to him in his life and so much that’s happened to him recently, it makes me so sad because he doesn’t deserve it all…he’s alone and it makes me weep because he doesn’t deserve to be alone he deserves to be happy. i worry about his mental health and how he feels about himself because i know he doesn’t have a high opinion of himself, he keeps calling himself a loser and it makes me so sad because i want to hug him and tell him how much i care about him and how much he impresses me

hes such a kind sweet man and ill never be able to have him. ill never be able to hug him or hold him or tell him everything will be ok, ill never be able to spoil him and dote on him and love him.

it hurts me so bad, i dont know what to do and my heart just aches and aches…i hate myself so much, i hate my heart so much for doing this to me…

>>41422680
i wish i could get a boyfriend but i donut how to there’s a really nice and sweet man i pine for online but i cannot pursue it because it would be inappropriate and my heart feels broken