Why are all the pale autistic nerdy antinatalist boys that are my type either trooning out or being massive faggots that can only jerk off to sissy porn?

I've always wanted a mama boy that is massively depressed (I'm totally not manipulative trust me) but i never see them even in college and my external courses

my biggest fantasy is having a boyfriend with a vasectomy so we can fuck all the time without worrying about bringing another soul into this world

I want to give him footjob and handjob while being in semi-public just to hear him whimper