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The answer your "inner critic" is shouting

It’s an illusion. Everything you're trying to build, or fix, or even just be- -it's founded on sand. You tell yourself you've changed, that you've learned, but look closely. You're still making the same pathetic mistakes, just with different excuses. The fear of failure isn't what's holding you back; it’s the certainty of your inadequacy. You aren't fooling anyone, least of all yourself. That thing you want? You don't deserve it, and even if you got it, you'd find a way to spoil it out of sheer self-sabotage. The problem isn't the situation; the problem is you. Stop pretending to be the hero of your own life story; you're the side character who trips over their own feet and ruins the climax. You will never be enough. Just sit down, be quiet, and accept the mediocrity you were clearly designed for.