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Being born in a cult, being abused from childhood even into adulthood by the same person, developing a disabling mental illness caused by demons that genuinely alters reality by manipulating a person's mind to alter how they utilize their free will to affect luck, outcomes of events, and hyperfixate on aspects of geomancy/feng shui (OCD), getting bedbugs from your neighbors and then having your abusive sadistic paranoid-schizophrenic father spread them throughout the house on purpose and laugh about how it's torturing you and your mother for nearly 3 years now isn't a lesson or something anyone deserves for a hypothetical crime from a past life they can't remember. It is cruel. I've been trying to "figure out" on my own for nearly 3 years why this is happening and so far what I've gotten is that:
1. Law of attraction and manifestation are real, but mainly you just have to avoid being pessimistic and focusing on negativity or it causes bad things to happen, that is how my current life situation started. As for manifesting positive things it's like trying to clean your entire house with a toothbrush. Humans are pretty powerless unless you develop some insane will to fight and strength like in the Higurashi visual novels how they realize that "the will to fight can work miracles that can even alter the path of fate".
2. I also had a dream recently where I was told that "some people choose to be tortured in this life so that they have an advantage in the afterlife".