8 years of hrt, feels like, good in my body most days. However some days, I feel like a bloated disgusting cow especially about my breasts. I sit there think of being a guy, it's nice, I even bind, use my guy voice, but then it goes away after a few days or a week or two and I need to be a woman again. Life would be easier if I could change my body everyday on a whim. Is this simply some severe form of mental illness? Inevitable detransition inbound? I have no idea. It's all so confusing.