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at my "fake" work I should take this stuff to heart more.
I have things I want to do because they are interesting to me, and I see that doing them would make things better, for the good of the force

too often I have an immediate reaction of "heh heh, I'm not paid enough for this shit, have fun with your failed LARP" but I should remember that we LARP because some day, something real may happen.

>only it's not only their pride which is on the line, it is also their livelihood
today or tomorrow, it's larping and embarrassment; in hurricane season people may die who didn't have to had they just a little more support in something mundane. Maybe nothing happens, and an emergency response in training is delayed unduly.

I don't know if it's just rebel yell coming back or just lucky happenstance, but I've been meeting a lot of people lately who are trying to make stuff happen. I've been BTFO too often on that sort of thing and am dismissive of those guys I meet, but there's a (hopefully) palpable admiration for it. Just the other night, we were talking about radio licenses for something as simple as training the juniors on radio management, let alone just actually having one for actual tactical/strategic concerns.

My response from the back was just a repeated "I dunno, It's probably because of [bullshit reason I've heard] that's dumb because [reason I tried once upon a time to challenge it]; but I'm not the one in charge." It's an obvious "Well, we COULD do this stuff, wink wink" from the boss, but I'm not the boss. If he wants to make it happen, then he can do it. I'd have to defer to him and it becomes his project anyway.

Even teh guy who tried to have me charged, before that destructive performance review, gave me an only middling one because he said I had some good ideas, was at least reliable for prototyping/testing, but never seemed to carry projects through. Maybe it's because every time I'd try anything I'd get shot down, asshole.