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>I wish fixing my brain wouldn't take so long...
It's a very unfortunate thing to be so slow, but slow it is...
>What's therapy like? Haven't tried...
Different therapists have different styles and schools of thought, but for the most part it's not too dissimilar from the things I'm saying to you. I often regurgitate the things I've been taught, though usually with a 4chan-accepted coat of paint. Unfortunately, mental health stuff can have a very ugh gross normie tone that feels condescending, and it turns a lot of people away from taking it seriously.
In terms of what you actually do, you walk in, tell them how it's been since you last saw them, and discuss problems you want to work on. "I have panic attacks at home when I'm just sitting around thinking about stuff" can be met with the trick of filling a bowl with cold water and dipping your face into it. That's my go-to example, because it's worked for me in the past back when I even had panic attacks. Nowadays I just using more general grounding techniques to avoid the panic attacks altogether, but a good therapist will give you something immediate for you to try to see if it helps, then take your feedback on it next week if you tried it, and finally adjust their advice if needed. It's pretty simple, and therapists are usually particularly chill. You have to vibe with your therapist though, it really makes a big difference.
>However, it's necessary for me to write everything down so I can keep track of absolutely EVERYTHING I need to do.
This would drive me insane!!! Lists make me feel terrible, I can't overcome that aforementioned dread of looking at the unfinished parts... I'm pretty sure my therapist and I talked about it at the time, and I'm not sure if they advised it or if I came up with it, but now I just tell people what I have to do out loud, usually my girlfriend. It helps me remember because I guess... I hear myself say it? Makes it stick for some reason!