>>519781796
You gotta find something to cheer yourself up and remoralize, anon. You are objectively demoralized right now and, being on /pol/, I shouldn't have to explain to you how and why that is bad.
You're self reflective enough to feel yourself spiralling right now, which is good. That means that you're not going to do it because you know it's wrong and will end very poorly.
Can you drop out of society? Sure. Can you give up on yourself? No.