>>40684454
>Thank you very much, siganon. You're truly the light of this board.
Ah.. that's.. gosh. It means a lot to hear, I am happy to do what I do, and you are right that I work a lot for it. I did the math and it seems like I put about a part-time job worth of effort into this general. And frankly, I am proud of it! Not just of my own work, but look around! You people are wonderful!
>You've mentioned backdraft a couple of times, and yes, I'm feeling it on my skin. Tonight was just a flashback, I should know how to handle those.
It is a tough fucking thing, flashbacks. I have people near and dear to me suffering those too. I should sometime learn more about what can be done about combating them.
>But at this moment I don't think I could trust humans. I have my Other Half, and screaming into the void.
I know I am barely an acquaintance, and this general is a public place, but I hope you feel safe to expose some of your inner world here. I suppose that must be good enough for now. But.. I have some advice regarding relationships: it helps to have a mutual friend with your romantic partner. It's like triangles in bridge construction.
>What do you mean about active comforts in this context?
It strongly depends on the person but all sorts of grounding things can help. A tight hug, a weighted blanket, a big plushie to hug, a worry stone, fidget toys, artistic expression, listening to music.. in other words, it is things that calm your nervous system.
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>>40690529
I think the other anons already asked some important questions, so I will only supplement two things: first of all, I think the core of what you want (being accomplished) is healthy, but it manifests in a way that actively hinders you, which probably is not news to you. So let me focus on your current circumstances. What gets in the way of doing the things you wanna do? Describe your current situation and what led to it.