When do I start having fun?

Thinking about...deserting

>asl
29 M NYC
>situation that makes you qualify for this thread
im a mentally ill depressed neet
>looking for
a girl to bedrot with and spend time together with a loser like me. id probably take a tranny too idk
>not looking for
guys
>discord
five2194

i got dumped and now i cant schlick my shit without crying when i finish
what do sisters