Seeing everyone pull Seiun Sky with their free tickets and their first 10 pulls while I have to spark with 200 rolls has made me realise something. I thought I would be upset, jealous, even angry. Instead I feel nothing. It evokes no emotional reaction from me. I am entirely numb to the fact that I am simply a lucklet. It's water off a duck's back. Que sera sera. Perhaps, in an ironic twist of fate. Seiun and I are not too dissimilar. My nonchalant attitude towards the outcome of my rolls is not manufactured in the recesses of my subconscience as a coping mechanism. Not at all. Some people were born lucky, and I am not one of them. And that's okay. That's okay. That's okay. That's okay. That's okay.