*don't read if you hate cuck fetish*
It's kind of surreal to live out coomer fantasies irl, seeing what parts of the idea really happen the way you think they would and what doesn't, which bits you actually like and what you don't.
I've watched my femboy get fucked into a puddle by guys on paper bigger and better than me in every way and like I thought it'd just be common sense that surely that'd change a relationship/his view of me but we're literally otherwise just completely the same, he likes my 5 inches the same
Also realised I only liked the idea of really masochistic stuff, pain is a no and humiliation is kinda cringe, the best is like playful teasing imo. On the other side I didn't really realise how much I'd get into playing with the masc men myself so it's gone from basically a super maso cuck kink to just a top/switch/bottom threesome basically