Why can’t I just be a trans woman
With all that it entails
Just be that? Why not? Why is it so impossible? Do I not truly want it?
Maybe I just want the fetish. The ideal. The porn sex fetish that started this. Femboy guide from 4chan. Not enough. Have to be less that human. Porn porn porn.
Why am I just a man with a fetish?
Where am I? I normal. Was normal
I hate myself. Even if I was a cusxwoman I’d hate myself
No. I fetishized transitioning itself. It’s a fetish.
Nothing else exist because nothing else is real.
I’m a real faketrans male on hrt. There is no help. Nobody will save me from me. There is nothing else.
All my dreams are dead and buried. Nothing of me remains. I killed it all.