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every attractive girl at my middle and high school had a nigger phase, or multiple. many of the lower class ones were rumored to have been involved in gangbangs with niggers. there weren't even that many white girls at my school, and only the frumpiest were not interested in following trends (so it goes) so basically every girl i was ever attracted to had already been ruined by blacks. it always disgusted me in a way that I didn't have the language to describe, because of my own conditioning, and looking back knowing what I know now and being able to clearly see the reasons for my severe depression and demoralization in those years is as cathartic as it is infuriating /blog