Very sad about life, used to be a composer but don't want to do that that anymore cause reasons. Wanted to make do on a promise to learn to draw years ago and figured with these circumstances its the perfect time. I started doing drawabox but it's kinda making me wanna be an hero and not want to practice. The thing is I got some other issues in my life too --

After a lot of fucked up shit happened I became a fat fuck. That's compounding all of this depression shit. I just realized that I need to do something creative to exist in this world become otherwise it's too damn hard.

Sorry for yapping as the kids say but I just go no motivation for anything and I really hate drawabox. I could use any sort of advice or help to actually make me want to get off my ass and want to learn or really do anything. I guess maybe I want an actual community to kind of be my mental rock. I hope I can get some help here, I've been on this site for a long time but I've never made a post like this before.

Thanks for reading